Okey-dokey Mom

Perseverance....despite the drought ... symbolic of my personality? Maybe so. i pursue because i must.

Taking a break for some random thoughts.. I have only 5 minutes. I am complicated. I am confused and i cant stop going over the things in my head from the last 5 minutes, 5 hours, 5 days, 5 weeks, the last 5 months or even the last 5 years.  It's Tuesday and i feel good - but pressured.Tomorrow is an unknown - busy, crazy, loaded with work- who knows!  After tomorrow I have a day off that is already spent with appointments and to do lists. It's a never ending cycle - Life is complicated that way. so why stress it right?  Friday is payday and i think of how I want to spend and treat myself, do for my family, spoil my kids, and just take a long hot bath with new bubble bath. I'm always wishing i was somewhere else than where i am doing anything else than what im doing so I can never relax in the bath either. I am spoiled with so much and yet I can't stop wanting to do more, see more, feel more and well just wanting more. I have these plans you see for every instance of ti...

Sunday is a day of rest to many This idea is not lost on us.  The realization costs a pretty penny. When you finally realize don't make a fuss. Our souls must rest even if the body cannot.  We shout out to him who remains anonymous. Remain still in this world he has begot. Give praise for the time given  Savor the air, wind and rain Believe that he has risen Until he comes back again. 

Does that word even mean anything when you have kids. I love the feeling of waking up without an alarm to the sounds of ...... oh yeah Fortnite. My youngest son is obsessed with this video game. I can barely remember a time when he wasn't yelling. This game is definitely not created for kids. The amount of stress that proceeds after he logs in cannot be natural. Yet he is learning something about teamwork. Maybe... I still can't decide what I like about it. So far I'm at a place where he can play until I'm annoyed. His twin sister would like nothing better than to go back to when there was quiet. What happened to Minecraft?? They were both into that and at least I could say they were playing together. Now there is this wall between them like they just can't even see each other. My best guess is that this game is so challenging that kids can't help but be obsessed when they play. I know that the twins would have eventually moved on to separa...

My kids ask a million questions everyday. I forget that when you're young everything is a wonder. I thought about this today and why they ask again and again. My conclusion was that kids like to know what they can always count on. They are constantly testing this with questions. Just to see if you are listening. My youngest daughter asks me.... "Mom what's your favorite color?" I said "Today my favorite color is yellow." She wanted to know again why I always pick a new color. "Everyday is a new day." She said "You always say that." We smiled and I asked her why she always wants to know. "Kids like to know things." she said "I wanted to see if you were listening."  Then she told me about her day. It's hard to listen when there is too much to do and bedtime is creeping up on you. Once upon a time I was not listening. I wish I could make up for those lost moments. My youngest knows she ca...

It's Wednesday... I haven't heard the sounds of the twins playing together in a while.  With Ipad's and video game playing taking a toll on free time there isn't much  lately to draw them together that isn't orchestrated by adults.  They have been so wrapped up in their own things that they were growing apart. Today the sounds of playing and laughter echoed through the house. The kind of laughter that makes you smile when you hear it.  How I have missed that sound! They were playing a game together and my oldest daughter snapped this photo.  I thought today would be really tough, as middle of the week days always are. Let us not forget all the papers to be signed, laundry to do, lunches to pre-pack. A smile for the hubs when he walks through the door, and dinner to cook after being caught in school traffic too. Sigh….   Sometimes it's extra crazy trying to wrap everything up early tired as a dog only to rush to the store for those mi...